Mendung Tak Berarti Hujan

Awan mendung menggelantung di langit
Menutup warna biru dengan kelabu.
Gemuruh datang memenuhi sanubari
yang kian lama menyesakkan kalbu.
Ku berasa untuk membendung hasrat hati
yang telah lama jatuh merindukan cinta.
Segalanya indah saat aku bersama mu
namun angin dingin tiba secepat kau pergi.
Langit senja menghampar penuh warna
tak lama lenyap ditenggelamkan malam.
Setiap harapan indah yang kau tebarkan
dengan mudahnya sirna ditelan hampa.

Written by RKF

Roses Scatter In Beauty

For nameless flowers that

Bloom amidst a field of grass
If they do nothing but sway
In the gentle breeze, that's fine but

I was born with the destiny of a rose
Born to live in glory and passion

Roses, Roses, they bloom with dignity
Roses, Roses, they scatter with beauty

Maybe I will scatter
Like those stars when time returns
An ordinary life
I cannot have but..

I have been gifted with the destiny of a rose
I always live with a burning passion

Roses, Roses, they bloom with dignity
Roses, Roses, they scatter with beauty

I have been gifted with the destiny of a rose
I always live with a burning passion

Roses, Roses, they bloom with dignity
Roses, Roses, they scatter with beauty

The Rose of Versailles opening OST

Awoken

I'm waiting
I'm waiting for your love.

I'm blinded
I'm blinded by my hollow.

I'm tired
I'm tired of this longing.

I'm done
I'm done with your game.

Written by RKF

A Promise

A promise I wish to full fill 

a promise to be by your side 

a promise to be there for you 

a promise to be yours eternally. 

Was a promise I never could full fill

because I could never be by your side

fate didn't let me to be there for you 

death has reached you before I do.

Written by: RKF

Disclaimer: I do not own the picture

Langit Senja

Langit senja yang ingin kupersembahkan padamu
tak kan selamanya menunggu kepergianku
kedamaian nan megah dibalut keindahan fana
hanya akan abadi dalam kenangan indah.

Angin hangat yang berhembus semakin mendingin 
warna langit senja pun semakin menggelap 
diguyur langit malam bertaburan bintang 
ingin kugapai sisa cahaya yang semakin menjauh.

Senja demi senja yang indah kulalui sendiri
hari berganti dan malam syahdu menghampiri 
cahaya perak rembulan memantul di dedauanan
disapu angin malam yang meneduhkan hati.

Kuhela nafas dalam untuk menyerap jiwamu
kuingin dirimu memenuhi sukmaku yang hampa
kedamaian abadi yang selama ini kudamba
selamanya menemani kemana pun ku pergi.

Written by: RKF
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture

Lonely Tune

The clouds are hanging up there 
covering the colorful sunset sky.
The brightness fades eventually 
as the shades are getting darker.

The sun is dying on the horizon 
leaving an unforgettable scenery.
The light reaching up it's hand 
to the eyes of your heart inside.

Take my soul to eternal freedom
take my soul to divine peacefulness.
Reach my soul with your warm breeze  
embrace my heart with your love.

My energy been slowly draining 
and so does my vitality of life.
Hoping love to be the last I see 
before I close my eyes for the last time.

Your image standing there before me 
I only wanted to be with you forever.
Together we live our love and soul
no more tears of loneliness in my heart.

Written by RKF
Disclaimer I do not own the picture.

Bunga Perak

Berjuta bunga bercahaya di padang bulan.. 

melambai-lambai dibuai angin malam.. 

menghangatkan jiwa yang terbalut sepi..

memberi harapan indah 'kan pelukan cinta..

tempat hati dan jiwa berlabuh dalam kedamaian.

Berjuta warna bergelora dalam hamparan bunga.. 

menebarkan pesona dalam keheningan malam..

namun hanya ada satu bunga yang bersemi di hati.. 

Akarnya meresap jauh ke dalam mengikat tali janji 

sehidup semati tuk bersama dalam keabadian cinta suci.

Berjuta bintang jatuh memantul di matamu..

pasir perak terbias di wajah tersentuh sinar rembulan.. 

Dewi cinta sang bintang kejora telah tiba di bandar hati.. 

mengisi hari-hariku selamanya dengan cinta dan kasih..

mengakhiri segala pencarian jiwa bathinku yang letih.

Written by RKF 

Disclaimer: I do not own the picture 

Abadi

Mereka berkata sebuah besi harus ditempa
dengan api dan bara agar menjadi sebilah pedang.
Mereka berkata apa yang tak berhasil membunuhmu
hanya akan menbuatmu lebih kuat.
Mereka pun berkata sekali berlian selamanya akan tetap berlian.
Namun aku memilih tuk menghunuskan pedangku ke tanah
dan menyerahkan kekuatanku pada Cinta.
Cinta yang pelahan akan membakarku dengan keabadiannya.

Written by: RKF
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture

Numb

This is the worse note I ever wrote in ny life.. I don't know what I am or who I am anynore.. not even know what I want or what really matters anymore. Here I am lying on my bed at 4:22 am without knowing what I seek anymore. Everything sudently seems blurred and pointless. I feel like I lost my path.. losing my faith.. not sure about myself anymore or whats right or wrong. Not desperate or faithful. I don't know what to believe anymore. All I ever wanted was to have a meantful life and happiness in life for able to be myself. Somehow now all my purposes are gone. Not even know why I am here anymore or why God created me. All of sudden everything went blank.. couldn't even remember my aims and dreams. 😯

Cahaya Hati

Indah kupandang dirimu 
merdu kudengar suaramu 
tenang hatiku dengan mu 
jiwa damai di samping mu.

Ingin kumiliki seluruh hatimu 
dan tak kan pernah kulepas 
sebagai nafas hidup jiwaku
selamanya aku jadi milikmu.

Hanya cinta yang kumiliki
demi cinta ku tetap bernafas
pada cinta kuhidupkan asa
tuk jalani hari-hari denganmu.

Bagai telur diujung tanduk
tanpa harapan akan cintamu 
jiwaku pelahan akan mati
kembali ke kegelapan hati. 

Tak harus kau jadi miliku 
asal hatimu ada padaku 
dan kutahu kau mencintaiku
sudah cukup bahagia hatiku.

Written by RKF 
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture

Mimpi Dalam Mimpi

Hampa menerpa tanpa sapa darimu
saat bersamamu setiap detik mengetuk
pintu hati yang telah lama tertutup pilu 
tersirat derita di mata ingin berkata cinta
yang tak mampu terucap lewat bibirku.

Setiap jumpa dengan mu indah terasa
langit berwarna dan taman berbunga
awan pun cemburu merintikan hujan
hujan yang menambah gairah hidupku
tuk terus mengejar genggam tanganmu.

Namun sanggupkah jiwaku yang telah hancur
tuk kembali membangun rangkaian harapan
dimana mentari tak kan berhenti bersinar
dan terus berpijar tuk menerangi langkahku
melewati segala padang dan luasnya lautan.

Amarah yang menghanguskan asmara
kebencian yang membekukan harapan
bagai panas yang menyengat di siang hari
dan dingin yang menusuk di malam hari
aku ngin terbebas dari belenggu hati

Tuhan tolonglah aku yang ingin bahagia 
melalui hari-hari hidupku dengan asmara
tiada lagi air mata yang menyesakkan hati
selamanya kumiliki dirinya yang kudamba
yang menggantikan hampa dengan makna.

Tuhan ampunilah aku bila ku berlumur dosa
lika liku ruang dan waktu yang pernah kulalui
kepingan beribu hati yang pernah kuhancurkan
menancap tajam di setiap langkah kakiku kini
aku hanyalah mimpi-mimpi indah tiada arti.

Written by: RKF
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture 

Rindu

Cinta adalah derita bila kau tak di depan mata
hati pun hampa tanpa tawa canda bersamamu.
Bunga mekar di tepi taman dihiasi lampu jalan
jiwa hampa diterpa angin malam berintik hujan.
Mengenang asa yang semakin sirna ditelan bulan
dirimu yang kudamba tempat ku mencurahkan jiwa.
Membendung hasrat cinta yang semakin menyiksa 
gelora asmara yang membungkus sesak nafasku.
Saat-saat bersamamu mencerahkan gelapnya malam
warna cerahmu menghiasi hari-hari yang mendung.

Written by RKF
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture

Sepoi-Sepoi

Di saat termenung sendiri di tepi kolam
pandangan menyapu air biru berombak
diantara bunyi kepakan air yang tersibak
terdengar sayup suara yang mengisi hati
bagai air segar yang menyirami bunga kalbu
kutoleh mencari pemilik suara merdu itu 
menunggu batang hidungnya muncul terlihat 
ternyata hanya angin sepoi-sepoi yang lewat

Written by: RKF

Rembulan Di Siang Hari

Malam syahdu di bawah sinar rembulan
cahayanya menyapu parasmu yang indah.
Angin malam membelai lembut rambutmu
ingin kudekap dirimu yang mencuri hatiku.

Kuimpikan harapan tuk menyentuh hatimu
tiap malam kukirim jiwaku tuk menemanimu.
Di sunyi dan gelap seberkas cahaya bersinar
menerangi relung-relung jiwaku yang gelap.

Cahaya harapan tuk suatu hari memilikimu 
siang malam memadu kasih di alam semesta.
Dikelilingi taburan bintang yang gemerlap
menghiasi malam yang menerawang gelap.

Suatu akhir dari pencarian yang tak berujung
tiada lagi hari-hari sepi yang menanti tuk dilalui
Hanya ada kita berdua diantara hamparan bunga
yang tetap bercahaya meski malam menyelimuti.

Written by: RKF
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture.

Long Hard Road Out Of Hell

I walked the smooth uphill path with heavy steps,
and successfully passed it's painful sharp peak.
Never thought the way down is way struggling
and there would be still a long way to go trough..
Now I'm resting my body under a leafless tree,
but the trunk's shadow eases the heat of the sun.
Small breeze releases the fears from my mind 
no one knows what will lie ahead your path.
I just follow the my path to seek my destiny,
I surrender myself to whatever I will face.
I'm a coward and a hero in my own way 
and no one shall stop me from what I want.
I'm just an ordinary human with flesh and blood
but with a mind and soul that no others may have.
Written by RKF

Journal

All this time I praise death because I do not like the kind of life I went through, but however God want me to praise life. It is ironic but I do still have a hope to live the life I have been craving.

Be Careful For What You Wish For... Because You Might Get It.

Last Friday I went to Singapore for medical check up and had some treatments, today the medical report has sent to my email and they said i have cancer and needed to do CT-Scans to know what stage of the cancer I'm having. I was surprised with the report but not really shocked, what will be will be. You all know mostly of my writings are not far from misery and death but also rising hopes for happiness and better stage of many anguish. I just hope what is happening now would change my life to something better in a way I wanted even I know I might have to give up something I have been living through for years. Some hopes may be failed to deliver but other hopes would come to replace the loss. Nothing last forever everything sooner or later would come to an end. So peace to all in this universe.. even the stars and the sun would one day burst.

The Peace The Sea The Sky and The Immortal

I'd do anything to seek you my define peace
I'd dive and sail all the sea across the horizon.
I'd never stop searching under the moving sky 
In the brightest day and the darkest night.

The moon whispers of an boundless loneliness  
stars twinkle like crystal tears trapped in the sky.
My mortal body may damaged by age and time
but my soul will never die and shall live forever.

I shall be reborn again and again until I find you
wherever you are I'd find you my eternal love.
Our souls shall never change through time  
I'd know it's you when I feel the same peace.

Two hearts search for each other shall not break
they are already broken on the moment they fell.
The fragments has merged as we had each other 
you and I are one because our love is immortal.

Written by RKF
Disclaimer I do not own the picture

Temaram Diujung Derita

Hati ini pilu teriris sembilu

jiwaku tenggelam dalam duka lara.

Dada terasa berat menyesakkan raga

air mata tak lagi mampu membasuh luka.

Hanya derita yang tersepuh di hati ini

kini namamu yang terpatri meneteskan darah

Menggerogoti jiwa ragaku yang masih bernyawa
luka bathin yang terus menggali dalam sanubari.

Rembulan ditelan awan meninggalkan gelap di bumi
segelap asa yang sirna ditelan waktu yang berlalu.

Cintamu telah pergi selamanya meninggalkanku sendiri

untuk melalui sisa waktu hidupku tanpa belahan jiwaku.

Written by RKF

Disclaimer: I do not own the picture

Gone Too Soon

Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon

Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon

Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon

Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon

Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon

Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon

Gone Too Soon - Michael Jackson

Dedicated to a wonderful soul that been colorized my life,

I love you always.

-R. Kanon F