Numb

This is the worse note I ever wrote in ny life.. I don't know what I am or who I am anynore.. not even know what I want or what really matters anymore. Here I am lying on my bed at 4:22 am without knowing what I seek anymore. Everything sudently seems blurred and pointless. I feel like I lost my path.. losing my faith.. not sure about myself anymore or whats right or wrong. Not desperate or faithful. I don't know what to believe anymore. All I ever wanted was to have a meantful life and happiness in life for able to be myself. Somehow now all my purposes are gone. Not even know why I am here anymore or why God created me. All of sudden everything went blank.. couldn't even remember my aims and dreams. 😯