Restless In Peace

I want to fly and touch the sky.. turn my back from the goddess and dive from the highest throne to the deepest ocean of your heart.

Rest my pitiful soul by your shore with your waves pounding the blood in my veins. My last stand for eternity.

Alucard

The Bird of Hermes is my name, Eating my wings to make me tame

 

Nosferatu the no life king

No castle, no domain, no subjects

No claim on the heart of others, no heart of his own

A lost soul stripped of everything, who wanders from battle to battle

Circle of A Bloody Journey

Sunset after sunset slowly swollen by the sea
leaving a crimson shade on the moving surface
the fallen stars touched the ocean of tears
my heart is a lost ship sailing under the dark sky
lonely pale moon follows me wherever I go
the water is black as dark as my cursed soul
yet it's red as more blood shed from my heart

Restless souls travel through space and time
craving for an eternal home for eternal peace
the sea never rest yet looks so peaceful
dive your lonely soul in to the define depth
darkness and fear is consuming your soul
close your eyes and open your sealed heart
feel me embrace you with the warm sunset

Written by: R.Kanon Fukai

Dust Storm

 

Let me in to your heart I'm cold in the wind
     I walked my feet and fly my wings to find you     
Sunset after sunset accompanied my journey

following where my restless heart take me to.

Written by RKF 

Disclaimer I do not own the picture 

Forgotten Apple

Spring became summer I'd always remember

Summer became autumn but I'd never return

Autumn became fall my heart slowly fallen 

Fall became winter my days became better

And winter became spring I gave her the ring 

Written by RKF

Hiden Rainbow

You're sweet like honey covering my bitter heart 

my time is dull without your face around my sight.

Something in your smile keeping me by your side

and something in your eyes penetrates my heart.  

I wish I could proceed my words for you to hear

but I know you only permit me to show how I felt.

Days became months and months became a year

maybe all this time you already knew how I feel :)

written by RKF 

Laughter

Whenever I could see the sky still shining upon me

I stare it moves and changing color before dusk fall

Sun ray shines through my eyes and illuminate my heart

the warm breeze embraces me with it's formless body 

I could feel you around me in every air I breath

wrapping my lonely body with all your fiery lust

Your beauty and curves always leave me restless

the harder I try to ignore the more I got swollen

You brought joy to my live each day I wake up

made my heart smile whenever I see your face 

Like a butterfly touches my cold tender heart

and like a flame you melt me down to my knees 

As my sight flew away following the traveling sky 

I brought my heart and my thoughts up there

Fly my hope and dreams to across the horizon

leaving all the old memories beneath the clouds 

written by RKF

Morrow

When the darkness reaches your soul,

your heart is falling down to hollow.

When the glimpse of light flew away,

your sight drown to the deepest sorrow.

Written by RKF

Floating Tomb

The bright of sky shine down on my earth

colorful rays colorize the canvas of my life

There I stand on the hill against the wind

the grass swayed and the blossoms shed 

With torned flesh and ripped heart I rest

above those swaying grass my body lies 

Alone facing the turning sky upon my eyes

feel the warmth of sun and the cold of rain

Day and night they raped my naked soul 

beneath this peaceful sky my body dies

Written by RKF

A Song In the Dark

Angels voice filling in your coming tune

bringing the unseen tears from the sky 

You sing your burdened heart yet empty

fire burns but it couldn't touch your pain  

The sun has left without the moon to replace

stars falling like the snow touching your hair

You close your eyes and listen to the song

the night is bright when you close your eyes 

You see more without your mortal sight

and your heart feels more when it bleeds

Her love only embraced your body 

while your soul is dying in emptiness

Diamonds spilled just to be stepped on 

wounding your feet and make you kneel

In your empty hands you only got your faith 

faith that fades away carried by your mind

You've lost something precious behind 

it even more painful when time swallows

In her grasp you fell in to the dark of sky

where no gravity could bring you back 

In despair you try to forget your torment

in your heart you want to feel satisfaction 

Your soul is singing the song of your heart

trying to find your peace alone in the dark

Written by RKF
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture 

Mafia Love

Warning explicit words 

"Hey Victor, boss wants to see you" said Martin

"What's the news?" I asked. He lift his shoulders "No idea" he replied.

So I walked to boss's doorway and knocked twice

"Please come in! I want to have some words with you"

He was sitting on his big leather chair behind his large desk

smiling wide while aiming a gun to my face.

Suddenly Paul and Scott grabbed my arms 

while Mike stripped my guns away.

He stood up slowly and walked closer to me.

"Do you know why I did this to you?" he asked 

 I spent few seconds to think, I said "No" and he hit my face.

He asked the same question for the second time

and he got the same answer again and again. 

"You're testing my patience Victor!"

He yelled at my face "don't play smart with me!"

and hit my abs with a baseball stick.

It hurts so badly but I tried to keep standing on my feet.

And this two pricks of his even holding me tighter.

I looked and smiled at them and said 

"So you two morons been aiming for my position e?" I giggled so hard.

"Sorry to ruin your mood but you two are only good at kissing ass!"

I didn't have to see, my words sure made their faces turned to red.

"Hey boss," Paul said "shall we break him?" 

"Yeah I want to put some make up on his pretty face!" add Scott 

Boss said "No! This time let me deal with him" He looks serious.

"And move backward I don't want any of his blood stain my carpet!"

Blow after blow was landed on my face and body

what the fuck was going on with this mafia boss.

Between my gasps I shouted back at him "What did I do?!

I'm your right hand and I never did failed you".

He gave a code with his fingers to Mike

Mike brought her in and pushed her to the couch.

She saw me and cried she was sorry  

she wanted to run to me but Mike held her. 

"Please let him go he didn't know". she begged.

"Oh isn't that sweet so he didn't know huh?! He didn't know!!" 

he yelled and slam his desk "No one touches my Angela!"

Now I realized what was going on but it was a bit too late.

then he walks around with a big smile on his face

he stopped and suddenly stroke my crotch with his baseball stick.

"Brice! You bastard!" she screams trying to release herself.
He shouted "See! she doesn't love you Victor! she only cares about your cock!" 
"Damn you Brice!" she cried. "Get mad however you like Angela!" he giggled.

That blow made me getting down on my knees but this two fucks held me up.

"Now let's see if he still can fuck! Release him!" he laughed so loud.

They pushed me to the floor and enjoying watched me suffering in pain.

I wish I got fainted but too bad that I didn't.

"I loved you Victor! I really do but you love her better! 

Is that how you repay me huh?! You were nothing! a street thug!"

Actually I knew that she was one of his mistresses,
but I couldn't help myself not to split her legs.

Whats more painful was I had to let go all hopes. 

I gather my strength and tried to crawl to reach her

but of course that wasn't enough for him to let go.

I heard his foot steps coming closer before he pulled his trigger.

"You should thank me for ending your suffer Victor!" he yelled.

Fresh blood flows from my wound but funny how I couldn't feel the pain

or the warmth of my blood streaming down on my skin

I guess he didn't care anymore or forgot about his carpet.

vaguely I heard her screamed my name.  

I wanted to continue crawl closer to her

too bad this time my body didn't follow my mind anymore.

My sight is getting blurry and everything sound faded.

I felt my surrounding was getting cold instantly,

slowly I felt her warmth wrapping my cold body.

And that was the last thing I could remember..

before I lost my conscious. 

Written by RKF

Peace

I want to rush myself in to you

snuggle my body in your arms  

I grasp your warm body tighter

like I would never let you go 

Just to feel that you are there 

just to know that I'm not alone

you hug me in your gentle arms

and embraced me with your heart

Please vibe that you want me more

please tell me that you will be mine

my blood rushes through my veins

driven mad by my pounding heart

Trying so hard to control myself 

I know you feel me wanting you 

tears spill as my burden released 

I'd give anything to feel this peace

Written by RKF

Peace

I want to rush myself in to you

to snuggle my body in your arms  

I grasp your warm body tighter

like I would never let you go 

Just to feel that you are there 

just to know that I weren't alone

please hug me in your gentle arms

and embrace me with your heart

Tell me that you want me more

tell me that you'll always be mine

my blood rushes through my veins

driven mad by my pounding heart

Trying so hard to control myself 

I know you feel me wanting you 

tears spill as my burden released 

I'd do anything to feel this peace

Written by RKF

Journey

I sat alone facing the colorful sunset sky

watching the waves embracing the shore.

Orange clouds gathered on the horizon

I thought I saw your face among them.

May the blowing wind carry me there

may the trace of warmth wrap my soul.

I want to be there right by your side 

in your arms I want to close my eyes.

The purple ray starting to fade away

slowly replaced by the shade of night.

Like the sun I shall keep my promise

will always rise even night seems still.

Written by: RKF

Time and Hope

Staring at the beautiful sky up there

the wind moves the clouds beneath

floating steady like the river current

I stood between height and depth

Time goes by without turning back

eats and swallow everything behind

sometime reveals when it's too late

time may rape and sky might fallen

Wind blows through my empty face

I feel hope blown through my soul

love will lead me to where I belong

I want to free myself and fly home

Written by: RKF

#0002 Journal

When I was a kid I wanted to be a soldier.. Why? because I don't want to die old.

#0001 Journal

It's been a while since the last time I logged in to my blog.. boy I missed a lot of things here lol! Many things happened many things changed. And among those changes some things were stay remain.. Sometimes it's for the good sage, sometimes it's the other way around... nothing is certain anymore. Led by hope I keep on searching for some answers.. answers that only can be revealed by myself and time. Sometimes the right path is not the easiest one... Wish me luck my friend.

The Sky

Each day people walking around
some were moved by their needs
some were driven by their dreams
and some were just waiting to die

Life is just like a blink of an eye
everything were just a repetition
same pattern with different forms
like the sun moving cross the sky

I want to fly and pierce the sky
but the sky has no boundaries
left me watching it from beneath
I close my eyes let my mind flew

Carrying along my heart and soul
like the sky it have no boundary
I free myself from this mortal body
fly up high and reach my dream

Written by: Reny Kanon Fukai

Innuendo (The Devil's Eye)

Tell me gypsy can you see her in your crystal ball?
She came to me hundred weeks ago to be my lover
Without her in my arms to mend my scattered heart
My days are gray and the future seems sorrowed

I love her more than a word can say without a doubt
Since she's gone from my days my loneliness spreads
The time we spent together could never be replayed
My love for her kept me away from falling to heaven

The wind blew in to my face as our time passing by
I stood alone watching the sea moves under the sky
No depth could divine my love or to reach in my soul
I am ready if this heart would be once again broken

All my sweet feelings were torn and I no longer care
I continue to live my life and enjoy this numb feeling
If  I lost her forever my heart and soul will die with her
My lips are smiling as the devil offering me his heart

Written by Crying Devil
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture

December

In the name of hope and dreams
one by one my wishes are swollen
In the name of love and happiness
my heart is ripped apart in hatred

I couldn't stop to find the answers
this wounded heart begins to decay
destroying my soul from the inside
I wish there's some tears left to cry

I tried to hold on and I tried to forget
it wears me out I can't think anymore
You come and go whenever you want
left me alone with my ugly thoughts

Hatred was burning stronger in time
it came when my faith is weakening
I wish to live in my separated world
where I could free myself from love

Written by Me