Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Laughter


Whenever I could see the sky still shining upon me
I stare it moves and changing color before dusk fall
Sun ray shines through my eyes and illuminate my heart
the warm breeze embraces me with it's formless body 

I could feel you around me in every air I breath
wrapping my lonely body with all your fiery lust
Your beauty and curves always leave me restless
the harder I try to ignore the more I got swollen

You brought joy to my live each day I wake up
made my heart smile whenever I see your face 
Like a butterfly touches my cold tender heart
and like a flame you melt me down to my knees 

As my sight flew away following the traveling sky 
I brought my heart and my thoughts up there
Fly my hope and dreams to across the horizon
leaving all the old memories beneath the clouds 

written by RKF

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Morrow


When the darkness reaches your soul,

your heart is falling down to hollow.

When the glimpse of light flew away,


your sight drown to the deepest sorrow.



Written by RKF

Friday, August 31, 2012

Floating Tomb

The bright of sky shine down on my earth
colorful rays colorize the canvas of my life
There I stand on the hill against the wind
the grass swayed and the blossoms shed 
With torned flesh and ripped heart I rest
above those swaying grass my body lies 
Alone facing the turning sky upon my eyes
feel the warmth of sun and the cold of rain
Day and night they raped my naked soul 
beneath this peaceful sky my body dies

Written by RKF

Friday, August 10, 2012

A Song In the Dark



















Angels voice filling in your coming tune
bringing the unseen tears from the sky 
You sing your burdened heart yet empty
fire burns but it couldn't touch your pain  

The sun has left without the moon to replace
stars falling like the snow touching your hair
You close your eyes and listen to the song
the night is bright when you close your eyes 

You see more without your mortal sight
and your heart feels more when it bleeds
Her love only embraced your body 
while your soul is dying in emptiness

Diamonds spilled just to be stepped on 
wounding your feet and make you kneel
In your empty hands you only got your faith 
faith that fades away carried by your mind

You've lost something precious behind 
it even more painful when time swallows
In her grasp you fell in to the dark of sky
where no gravity could bring you back 

In despair you try to forget your torment
in your heart you want to feel satisfaction 
Your soul is singing the song of your heart
trying to find your peace alone in the dark

Written by RKF
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture 

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Mafia Love

Warning explicit words 

"Hey Victor, boss wants to see you" said Martin
"What's the news?" I asked. He lift his shoulders "No idea" he replied.
So I walked to boss's doorway and knocked twice
"Please come in! I want to have some words with you"
He was sitting on his big leather chair behind his large desk
smiling wide while aiming a gun to my face.

Suddenly Paul and Scott grabbed my arms 
while Mike stripped my guns away.
He stood up slowly and walked closer to me.
"Do you know why I did this to you?" he asked 
 I spent few seconds to think, I said "No" and he hit my face.
He asked the same question for the second time
and he got the same answer again and again. 
"You're testing my patience Victor!"
He yelled at my face "don't play smart with me!"
and hit my abs with a baseball stick.

It hurts so badly but I tried to keep standing on my feet.
And this two pricks of his even holding me tighter.
I looked and smiled at them and said 
"So you two morons been aiming for my position e?" I giggled so hard.
"Sorry to ruin your mood but you two are only good at kissing ass!"
I didn't have to see, my words sure made their faces turned to red.
"Hey boss," Paul said "shall we break him?" 
"Yeah I want to put some make up on his pretty face!" add Scott 
Boss said "No! This time let me deal with him" He looks serious.
"And move backward I don't want any of his blood stain my carpet!"

Blow after blow was landed on my face and body
what the fuck was going on with this mafia boss.
Between my gasps I shouted back at him "What did I do?!
I'm your right hand and I never did failed you".
He gave a code with his fingers to Mike
Mike brought her in and pushed her to the couch.
She saw me and cried she was sorry  
she wanted to run to me but Mike held her. 
"Please let him go he didn't know". she begged.
"Oh isn't that sweet so he didn't know huh?! He didn't know!!" 
he yelled and slam his desk "No one touches my Angela!"

Now I realized what was going on but it was a bit too late.
then he walks around with a big smile on his face
he stopped and suddenly stroke my crotch with his baseball stick.
"Brice! You bastard!" she screams trying to release herself.
He shouted "See! she doesn't love you Victor! she only cares about your cock!" 
"Damn you Brice!" she cried. "Get mad however you like Angela!" he giggled.
That blow made me getting down on my knees but this two fucks held me up.
"Now let's see if he still can fuck! Release him!" he laughed so loud.
They pushed me to the floor and enjoying watched me suffering in pain.
I wish I got fainted but too bad that I didn't.

"I loved you Victor! I really do but you love her better! 
Is that how you repay me huh?! You were nothing! a street thug!"
Actually I knew that she was one of his mistresses,
but I couldn't help myself not to split her legs.
Whats more painful was I had to let go all hopes. 
I gather my strength and tried to crawl to reach her
but of course that wasn't enough for him to let go.
I heard his foot steps coming closer before he pulled his trigger.
"You should thank me for ending your suffer Victor!" he yelled.

Fresh blood flows from my wound but funny how I couldn't feel the pain
or the warmth of my blood streaming down on my skin
I guess he didn't care anymore or forgot about his carpet.
vaguely I heard her screamed my name.  
I wanted to continue crawl closer to her
too bad this time my body didn't follow my mind anymore.
My sight is getting blurry and everything sound faded.
I felt my surrounding was getting cold instantly,
slowly I felt her warmth wrapping my cold body.
And that was the last thing I could remember..
before I lost my conscious. 

Written by RKF


Sunday, June 17, 2012

Peace














I want to rush myself in to you
snuggle my body in your arms  
I grasp your warm body tighter
like I would never let you go 

Just to feel that you are there 
just to know that I'm not alone
you hug me in your gentle arms
and embraced me with your heart

Please vibe that you want me more
please tell me that you will be mine
my blood rushes through my veins
driven mad by my pounding heart

Trying so hard to control myself 
I know you feel me wanting you 
tears spill as my burden released 
I'd give anything to feel this peace

Written by RKF

Peace













I want to rush myself in to you
to snuggle my body in your arms  
I grasp your warm body tighter
like I would never let you go 

Just to feel that you are there 
just to know that I weren't alone
please hug me in your gentle arms
and embrace me with your heart

Tell me that you want me more
tell me that you'll always be mine
my blood rushes through my veins
driven mad by my pounding heart

Trying so hard to control myself 
I know you feel me wanting you 
tears spill as my burden released 
I'd do anything to feel this peace

Written by RKF

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Journey






















I sat alone facing the colorful sunset sky
watching the waves embracing the shore.
Orange clouds gathered on the horizon
I thought I saw your face among them.

May the blowing wind carry me there
may the trace of warmth wrap my soul.
I want to be there right by your side 
in your arms I want to close my eyes.

The purple ray starting to fade away
slowly replaced by the shade of night.
Like the sun I shall keep my promise
will always rise even night seems still.


Written by: RKF

Monday, June 11, 2012

Time and Hope




















Staring at the beautiful sky up there
the wind moves the clouds beneath
floating steady like the river current
I stood between height and depth

Time goes by without turning back
eats and swallow everything behind
sometime reveals when it's too late
time may rape and sky might fallen

Wind blows through my empty face
I feel hope blown through my soul
love will lead me to where I belong
I want to free myself and fly home

Written by: RKF




#0002 Journal

When I was a kid I wanted to be a soldier.. Why? because I don't want to die old.

Friday, June 8, 2012

#0001 Journal

It's been a while since the last time I logged in to my blog.. boy I missed a lot of things here lol! Many things happened many things changed. And among those changes some things were stay remain.. Sometimes it's for the good sage, sometimes it's the other way around... nothing is certain anymore. Led by hope I keep on searching for some answers.. answers that only can be revealed by myself and time. Sometimes the right path is not the easiest one... Wish me luck my friend.

Monday, January 16, 2012

The Sky
















Each day people walking around

some were moved by their needs
some were driven by their dreams
and some were just waiting to die

Life is just like a blink of an eye
everything were just a repetition
same pattern with different forms
like the sun moving cross the sky

I want to fly and pierce the sky
but the sky has no boundaries
left me watching it from beneath
I close my eyes let my mind flew

Carrying along my heart and soul
like the sky it have no boundary
I free myself from this mortal body
fly up high and reach my dream

Written by: Reny Kanon Fukai

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Innuendo (The Devil's Eye)

Tell me gypsy can you see her in your crystal ball?
She came to me hundred weeks ago to be my lover
Without her in my arms to mend my scattered heart
My days are gray and the future seems sorrowed

I love her more than a word can say without a doubt
Since she's gone from my days my loneliness spreads
The time we spent together could never be replayed
My love for her kept me away from falling to heaven

The wind blew in to my face as our time passing by
I stood alone watching the sea moves under the sky
No depth could divine my love or to reach in my soul
I am ready if this heart would be once again broken

All my sweet feelings were torn and I no longer care
I continue to live my life and enjoy this numb feeling
If  I lost her forever my heart and soul will die with her
My lips are smiling as the devil offering me his heart

Written by Crying Devil
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

December

In the name of hope and dreams
one by one my wishes are swollen
In the name of love and happiness
my heart is ripped apart in hatred

I couldn't stop to find the answers
this wounded heart begins to decay
destroying my soul from the inside
I wish there's some tears left to cry

I tried to hold on and I tried to forget
it wears me out I can't think anymore
You come and go whenever you want
left me alone with my ugly thoughts

Hatred was burning stronger in time
it came when my faith is weakening
I wish to live in my separated world
where I could free myself from love

Written by Me

Sunday, December 4, 2011

This playlist was made on 2009, now it is here dedicated to anyone who have suffered from life, love, faith and pride. I hope you enjoy


the songs were taken from OST of games and anime

The playlist song tracks:
1. The price of freedom (FF Crisis Core)
2. Remember sadness (Saint Seiya)
3. Jigoku Shoujo opening (Ryuzaki)
4. Inside a dream (Seiji Yokoyama)
5. Ameno (ERA)
6. FF VII Advent Children (Jenova)
7. Triteza (Saint Seiya)
8. Aura (Yuki Kajiura)
9. Violin Medley (Vanessa Mae)
10. Follow me OST Ghost in the shell (Innocence)
11. A dangerous mind (Within Temptation)
12. Zanarkand (Final Fantasy X)
13. OST Jigoku Shouho
14. Jigoku Shoujo Futakomori Ending
15. Jigoku Shoujo (Rock)
16. Jigoku Shonen
17. Moonlight Wilderness (Tekken 5 OST)
18. Pegasus Fantasy (Saint Seiya)
19. Sephiroth's Theme FF VII Advent Children
20. Soldier Dream (Saint Seiya)

Direct link: http://www.goear.com/playlist/0382a6a/animegame-songs/

Thursday, December 1, 2011

The Seperated World (Wish)

nothing could hold me back
not even love hope or dreams
follow the raging beating mood
my adrenaline is uncontrolled

got to move on got to stay high
releasing the animal inside me
i just try to escape from myself
nothing left to believe anymore

i wanna hit the wall and scream
so sick of this regular ****'in life
or just trying to prove myself
looking for pride, fright or a fight

i inspired you, you influenced me
you ****** my mind so bad man
or i just freaked out.. anyway
you made me happy man i'm flattered

things ain't matter anymore
no more such right or wrong
wish i could just burst and die
just to prove that i was alive

thanks man~

Written by: A Wacko Eminem Style hahahah -peace-
Inspired by Eminem

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

A Short Story of a Drunken Man

On a Friday night he drives his car to a bar. Yes.. he needs some drink to have fun and to forget whatever troubled his mind. He saw an empty stool with a pretty lady sitting next beside it. "Oh hi.. my name is Rennie, I wonder if this seat is taken?" he asked politely. "Oh, not at all...! please have a seat" she replies and smiles. Her name is Olivia, then they talk.. and drink and laugh.. It seems this guy Rennie is enjoying himself.. Olivia was a good listener and he began to get carried away with his mood.. he told her whatever brought him there as one glass after another he gulped, until he couldn't remember whatever he spoke.

The next day he woke up on his bed, still in the same clothes he wore last night. His head was really sore and heavy but he began to get panic when he couldn't remember how he got home. He look out the window and found his car is there parked on his carport. He look for his keys and wallet.. nothing is missing. He is glad and happy, "It must be Olivia who drove me home with my car last night, she must have searched my address on my ID card. I hope something did happen last night." he said in his mind and smiled. But he couldn't find a single note from her to tell him where he could reach her back. "Oh darn.. I forgot to ask her number.. maybe the bartender knew". He jumps to the shower and drive back to the bar with full of hope.

He is lucky, the man who stand behind the bar is the same bartender he saw last night. He approaches and smile.. "Hi, I just drop by.. Ummm... do you know the lady who was with me last night?" he asked. "Oh, you mean Olivia? yeah I do.. she's a regular here, is there's anything else?" asked the bartender. Rennie is happy, "Yeah, I want to thank her for last night for the great time we had and...". "Dude, I don't mean to be rude but you were so drunk last night, she wanted to say goodbye but there's nothing she could do to make you sober. So she pays everything and left with her fiancee."

"Fiancee?" suddenly he felt his heart stopped..and his face turns pale. "Renford? are you okay? you look pretty messed up dude, you might need some help" said the bartender. "Shut up.. please just leave me alone!" Got embarrassed and upset he stood up and went back in to his car. While driving on his way home, he couldn't stop thinking.. who drove him home last night. As his brain began to work better, he realized.. that his room is on the second floor and it was impossible for Olivia to carry him up there to his bed. And.. how does the bartender knew his written name? &%$$#@!#%$@!* WTF?!

Written by Reny Kanon

Sunday, November 27, 2011

I'm sitting in front of my computer then suddenly the light gets poor. Damn... it's almost 5 p.m, how fast the time passing by. Day by day I spend my time the same way.. what a life.. what a life.. and still I 'm eating my heart out. Drain my mind.. talking to myself. Hey my friends are out there.. but who cares.. I'm a loner. Sometimes I enjoy.. and sometimes I don't, i think that's still normal isn't it? My boredom is eating me.. I'm an art person who is trapped in the business world.. Am I happy? no I'm not. But do I enjoy the money I get? Yes.. So what's more important? satisfaction or happiness? the answer is both! Or.. maybe I asked the wrong question.. Idealistic or realistic? oh yeah.. that's the right question. I guess I have to be realistic before I get to idealistic, ain't that sucks? Yes reality is sucks!! sucks!! my life sucks!! All I got is time.. yes time.. couldn't stop time. Oh Chronos the God of time, you're the father of Zeus aren't you? And oh yes.. I knew Thor since long time.. but I just find out that he is the son of Odin, silly me.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Coffee and Cigarettes

Smoking alone in the corner of my room
A cup of black coffee is sitting by my side
It is half empty while the astray is half full
Smoke by smoke came out from my mouth

Every blow carry away my unpleasant feelings
But my wounded heart keep on providing them
Along with a hurtful joy and enjoyable delusions
My lips are smiling but too bad not with my eyes

This lonely heart is getting colder by night
Within my mind I try to find your warmth
And I did the same thing night after night
I began to enjoy this tormenting pleasure

I open my window to let some fresh air to join in
The city lights are glittering against the night sky
I always knew that you never been mine alone
But why life is so black and white without you

Written by Reny Kanon
Disclaimer: I don't own the picture

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

The Messiah, Warrior of Ruin

She has the face of innocence,
and eyes like the depth of night.
Fragile and vulnerable from outside,
but possess the power to demolish.
She is a warrior of silence,
speaks through her eyes,
and kills through her will.
She is the presence of death,
sent to end a civilization,
to turn anything to silence.

Written by Me
Tribute of Hotaru Tomoe Sailor Saturn