with or without you

God, you gave me this feeling,
please give me strength and show me the way.
Damn if i don't, damn if i do, either way i'd die.
So its better if i go, at least i'd die in the way i want.
Its like a will.. a call from the heart i never could resist.
I'm longing for you i'm losing for thou..
Let faith lead me to my destiny,
because i couldn't live with or without you.
So its better if i die in your arms, rather than dying in distance.
Your love saved my soul, i'm no longer a lost wondering soul,
almost forever restless forever lonely, forever regrets.
God i dont blame you for the feeling you given me,
but at least please be responsible by guiding me what to do with it.

written by Reny Kanon

The Sea and The Sky

You are the sea, bearing my colors within you. I watch you beneath me day and night with my sun and my moon above you. Always cover you with my love and colors follow you to wherever you go.
By sunset i warm you with my orange sun and purple shades, by night i embrace you with my diamond stars. Each time when i stared at you i saw myself reflected on your beautiful surface, sometime with a rainbow or a cloudy face.
You never give up to reach me with your waves, sometimes you got so desperate with yourself hitting the coral cliff with your raging waves. And sometimes you get so peaceful and calm wiping the lonely shore softly and gently till you get restless and sad.
When despair raging within me i gathered all my rain clouds and cry upon you my sea, only my tears could ever reached you carrying all my feelings to blend in you. You sent your soul to me through evaporation i absorb every day and night, creating thunder storms within me. Drowning my soul slowly to an endless journey.
My beautiful sea, why we look so close but will never be together, but our love is for eternity.

Written by Reny Kanon

Desires and Despairs

Some people were meant to be together but fortune never been on their side.

The Queen and The Knight

Something about this painting catch up with my mind.

Another day to go through

As the day goes by, i been doing things i try to believe its right. I took steps closer to my dream, and go through one task to another. Until i reaches the level that i'm ready to be what i expect from myself. it takes guts and courage to climb a mountain. Maybe i'm still at the bottom but i won't give up until i reach my peak. I'd need a lot and bless and support. But i couldn't even rely on anyone. Oh well.. it's my life my journey, everything's is up to me. Wish me luck!^^

First day on February 2010

Today is the first time i made my blog, inspired by a friend named Ratri Chibi. We never actually met but somehow i feel her like a water in the desert. No matter how sad or upset she were, she always finds her way to be happy and make people around her feel warm. I wish I could be like her one day, to live my life without burden and be able to give warm smile in the lips and heart to all my friends. I feel blessed to know her, thanks to my older friends that invited me to join the Plurk community, may God bless them all always.