The Lost Mirror

Everyday I saw your face
Your eyes, your nose and lips
When I stared at you in the eyes
They stared back at me intensely
Sometimes soft like morning dew
Sometimes wild like raging fire 
A face that hide a million story
Among triumph and agony
Mixture of compassion and cruelty
Between true love and pure lust
But none resembles goodness or evil
Like day and night appeared at once


Written by Reny Kanon
Tribute of Saint Gemini Saga
Disclaimer: I do not own the picture

Oscar Wilde

Oscar Wilde was a name I have heard a long time ago after Shakespeare, but I just read about him recently. Oscar Fingal O'Flahertie Wills Wilde (16 October 1854 – 30 November 1900) was an Irish writer and poet. His first creation I read was a short story titled The Fisherman and His Soul. Though he had a lot of tragedy in his life, he kept creating his works and his name will always be remembered in the world class literature art history.

The Longing Sadness

Day by day alone I sat behind my window
Staring at the falling wrinkled drying leafs
One by one they reached the cold ground
Then blown away by the dry autumn wind

Suddenly the light in my room began to dim
But still I stayed on my old leather couch
Until the street lamps were all turned on
I stood up and walked myself on to my bed

Rest myself on it but not my agitated mind
The lights from the moving vehicles broke in
And created moving silhouettes on my walls
Another restless night I had to go through

In every breathe I took I felt your absence
My eyes were dry out but I cried in silence
The tears streamed to the depth of my heart
And slowly this beating heart began to break

Leaving myself to what I had once believed
That one day you'd be back again in my arms
So I could once again kiss your rose wine lips
Within this heart would once again blossoms

Written by Reny Kanon
Disclaimer: I don't own the picture

Oscar Wlide's "The Fisherman and His Soul" sadest scene

The black waves came hurrying to the shore, bearing with them a burden that was whiter than silver. White as the surf it was, and like a flower it tossed on the waves. And the surf took it from the waves, and the foam took it from the surf, and the shore received it, and lying at his feet the young Fisherman saw the body of the little Mermaid. Dead at his feet it was lying.

Weeping as one smitten with pain he flung himself down beside it, and he kissed the cold red of the mouth, and toyed with the wet amber of the hair. He flung himself down beside it on the sand, weeping as one trembling with joy, and in his arms he held it to his chest. Cold were the lips, yet he kissed them. Salt was the honey of the hair, yet he tasted it with a bitter joy. He kissed the closed eyelids, and the wild spray that lay upon their cups was less salt than his tears.

And to the dead thing he made confession. Into the shells of its ears he poured the harsh wine of his tale. He put the little hands round his neck, and with his fingers he touched the thin reed of the throat. Bitter, bitter was his joy, and full of strange gladness was his pain.

But the young Fisherman listened not to his Soul, but called on the little Mermaid and said, 'Love is better than wisdom, and more precious than riches, and fairer than the feet of the daughters of men. The fires cannot destroy it, nor can the waters quench it. I called on thee at dawn, and thou didst not come to my call. The moon heard thy name, yet hadst thou no heed of me. For evilly had I left thee, and to my own hurt had I wandered away. Yet ever did thy love abide with me, and ever was it strong, nor did aught prevail against it, though I have looked upon evil and looked upon good. And now that thou art dead, surely I will die with thee also.'

And his Soul besought him to depart, but he would not, so great was his love. And the sea came nearer, and sought to cover him with its waves, and when he knew that the end was at hand he kissed with mad lips the cold lips of the Mermaid and the heart that was within him brake. And as through the fulness of his love his heart did break, the Soul found an entrance and entered in, and was one with him even as before. And the sea covered the young Fisherman with its waves.

Once Upon A Time

Once upon a time on a sunny afternoon

I stood alone on a side of a crowded lake
A beautiful white swan caught my eyes
It was surrounded by the quacking ducks

The sun was burning so angry and dry
Resisting to be drown by the evening fall
I walked more closer to watch you better
It didn't take long for our eyes to meet

Like fresh water washed away the heat
Slowly it filled full my long drying heart
We smiled at one another with all desire
The hot burning sun had no longer flared

I kissed your lips under the twilight sky
We found each other in our long sadness
In my arms I held you close to my chest
Hoping the future would be on our side

Written by Reny Kanon

The Fisherman and The Mermaid

There was once a handsome fisherman, who was afraid of nothing except drowning, who fell in love with a beautiful mermaid. Each night she sung for him under the moon light.

The mermaid couldn't live above the water, and the fisherman couldn't live beneath it.
Every night they meet at the surface, she reaching up from the sea and he leaning over the side of his boat to kiss her red cherry lips.
And every night he felt the kiss a little differently. Sometimes it was gentle like ripples in rock pools, sometimes playful like foam at the edge of the beach, and sometimes wild like the wave pounding themselves against the cliff.
Day by day, breath by breath, he started to taste how dry the air was, and each day he ached for the evening when the mermaid’s kiss would once again wash over him.
The fisherman was happy but love cast a shadow on those it leaves behind, and the shadow is called jealousy. So the fisherman's wife and children knotted together an iron net of wicked, barbed chains and caught the mermaid while the fisherman was fishing else where. They killed the helpless creature quickly with dry knives and burned her body. Since that night the fisherman couldn't find his mermaid. Each time he called for her there were no answer. She never show up again on the sea surface. But he never stop looking for his lost love.
Less than seven kissless nights later the fisherman was found dead curled up in the bottom of his boat like a piece of dry rope. The doctor came to look at him to determine how he had died. He inspected the body carefully and gently. He was a thorough man so he went back to the house and looked at the wife and children too. This made them uncomfortable but nonetheless none of them told him about the mermaid, nor said anything about her murder. The doctor told the cruel family that their fisherman had died of a broken heart. But in his little book he had written what he really knew, strange though it was: the fisherman who was afraid of drowning had suffocated in the dry, dry air, exactly like a fish out of water.

Inspired and taken from The Fisherman and the Mermaid, The Water Book of the Knot-Shop Man
Disclaimers: I do not own the story or the picture

Clouds Without Rain

I came by to the place where I met you

I stared and stood there for some time
Felt the cold air moving through my face
The sun was sleeping behind the clouds

I couldn't find my shadow on the ground
Only cracks that gone wider each day
I bent my knees and touch the ground
Letting the dry dust running on my palm

I saw you smiling in my restless mind
I stayed for a while and started to smile
My days were cloudy but no falling rain
No embracing warmth or refreshment

I stood up and turn my back around
Began my steps back to where I came
In my heart I said to you I missed you
Each day I came to see if you're there

The nights were dull without the stars
In loneliness I went through my days
Time wouldn't stop tormenting my soul
My life were empty without your love

Written by: Reny Kanon

Winter Sun

I'm standing under the winter sun
Facing the cold wind in a bright day
My emotion froze under the icy lake
Nothing moves but the fears inside

But I keep standing to face the truth
To gain honor and fill full my destiny
To give my love my life and my pride
I'm dying before you and feel the pain


Blood streaming out from my wounds
Wet my body and stained the ground
I made mistakes I could never change
My soul was lost and still I tried to live

The smell of despair is crawling over me
I tried to fight but I kept on breathing it
Your tears couldn't wash my blood away
Please let go, let me end what I released

Written by Reny Kanon
Tribute to Alpha Dubhe Siegfried the God Warrior of Odin

Falling Sky

Day and night I stare up at the moving sky
The gray clouds are covering your blue surface
I wish I could be the wind to case them away
I wish I could reach your bright delicate skin

You only can be seen but couldn't be touched
I walked through the lonely road beneath you
A path that never ends with no certain answer
Like a lost soul that couldn't find it's way home

Day and night I saw you wondering above me
I wish I could be the clouds to be close to you
I wish I could be the sun that made you bright
Or the moon and stars that beautify you at night
Written by Reny Kanon
I love you my love, and i always will

Black Heart

Black stain dirt my bloody heart.

Spreading slowly with lust and evil.
Hunger for satisfaction and greed.
Searching for pleasure and prey.

Move in silence through my fingers.
Slide my heat on your unguided body.
To feel your flesh and taste your core.
Looking for pure satisfaction in pain.

I will keep holding on to what I craved
Even the sea will rise and the sky will fall.
Black heart driven by eternal wounds.
Whipped by betrayals and deceives.

This delusional war would never ends.
The sun will burnt and moon will break. 
Even there were nothing left to destroy.
My heart will never be free from hatred. 


Written by: Reny Kanon
Tribute to Sephiroth

The Petal Rain

One moment in a peaceful warm summer night.
Where all the flowers are gracefully blossoming.
Under the gathering stars swayed by the wind.
Reflecting the summer night with all living colors.

I breathe the summer air with all it's wisdom.
I lay my body on the warm grass facing the sky.
Releasing my mind to the wave of serene space.
Drowning my mortal body in the tender ground.

I close my eyes seeking for peace and freedom.
May my soul leave my body for some moments.
To feel free, to feel peace and divine happiness.
Far away from fear, pain and the sorrow of life.

One by one the flower petals land on my face.
I open my eyes and knew that the time is over.
I began to feel the pain again loneliness strikes.
Love is like an over flowing river, it never stops.

Memory can be so beautiful and unforgettable.
We can only remember but couldn't turn back.
When our love ones were taken away from us.
Shards of memories could be shards of blades.

Silently my tears streaming down on my face.
The wind touches my shoulder to remind me.
To wake me up and to move on with my life.
I smiled in bitterness staring at the petal rain.

Written by Reny Kanon
Tribute to all the people who lost their love ones.

A Heart Full of Tears

A heart full of tears I bear within me.
The rain keep falling in the shiny day.
I knew one day the time would come.
I stare the leaving daylight in despair.
Even the strongest sunlight will fade away.
Death is what makes life's so beautiful.

In every second a flower petal falls.
Drop to the ground blown by the wind.
Once they are lost it would be forever.
But the memories will always remains.
I try to gather the shards of memory.
Create a picture and live a sad dream.

May 22 2007 and June 10 2011 was the saddest day in my life.
I always love you mum and dad, i will never forget the wonderful
memories we had back then. May your soul rest in peace. Amen.

Water of Icy Thorns

following the piano tunes you are playing
so beautiful and peaceful through my ears
although every tune is a thorn in my heart
and every drop of pain raining on my soul

quietly my tears started to flow like river
wet my drying soul to feel the icy thorns
a heart full of tears i been carrying inside
but i never really meant to pour it away

please do not stop, just keep on playing
the sun is pale whenever you're around
and that is just the way i want it to be..
pale like the bright moon over my days

i don't care if my tears turned to blood
i don't mind if my heart started to bleed
as long i could hear you play the song
i will drink this cold water of icy thorns

Written by Reny Kanon July 7, 2009

The Queen and The Knight

She was the queen and the most beautiful one

Surrounded by her guards and her powerful king
She looked in glimpse just to sight my presence
I tried so hard to ignore her beauty and charm

She was like a full moon in the dark of night
I strive to resist cause I was just her knight
One day I caught her eyes stared in pain
Her soul screaming behind her fiery eyes

That moment my heart beats stopped
An invisible arrow just struck me down
I couldn't breathe not even to swallow
Been trying so hard not to falling apart

Day by day time torturing our filthy souls
And we both knew that we lust each other
Her love and lust seduced me to surrender
One night she stripped down all my dignity 

Written by Reny Kanon

Can't Get Enough

My love, I never can get enough of you
Couldn't escape from this dirty feeling
I really need to have you in my arms
Close to my body, close to my heart
I need your touch, I need your warmth

I couldn't live this suffer much longer
If only you were here close from me
I'd pull you closer and kiss your lips
To feel your warm skin against mineTo hear your voice aching on my ear

Without you beside me my life is dull
Every night I dream of you by my side
Each morning I woke up without you 
I wish that one day I would find you
So we could race our heart beat as one

Written by Reny Kanon

Just

"I love you with all my heart my queen, but I'm just a knight without a sword. So how would I protect you from anything that might harm you?"
"This kind of situation made me frustrated, but never mind.. I would still love you always."

Lonely

Afternoon sun ray touches my lonely skin.
I closed my eyes to feel this serene warmth.
I remember the time I had you in my arms.
That moment I knew there's no other peace.

Rain clouds gathered so gloomy and gray.
They try to wash away the yellow sun ray.
I stood alone in the rain with empty stare.
Hoping it would drown my miserable soul.

Cold wind blowing through my warm body.
Stabbed my heart with it's chill and blades.
Leaving me there with my untold memories.
I wish you were standing there to hug me.

Written by: Reny Kanon

The Moon and The Wolf

I walked through the field of grass
under the full moon on one night.
The trees whispering in the wind
and silvery grass shining so bright.

I gazed up to watch the starry sky
the night was so graceful and still.
Watching me standing beneath it
I saw the moon was smiling at me.

Then slowly I felt my heart moved,
the moon is so beautiful and bright.
But somehow I sense a loneliness,
even the stars were always there..

Suddenly I feel sadness rushing in,
like missing someone for too long.
From distance I heard the wolf howls
the same loneliness spread in the air.

Now I knew that they were once lover
but a tragic fate separate them forever.
I lay myself on the white silvery grass,
letting the wind to free my spirit away.

Written by Reny kanon
Dedicated to my old friend Black Wolf

Empty Bottle

Day by day I spend my time in silent,
night after night I search for a dream.
Everything seem not certain anymore,
in this mind live so doubtful thoughts.
Vanishing the fire slowly to darkness,
stepping my feet further to nowhere.

I lay my helpless body on my couch,
letting my restless mind taking over.
In silence my heart screams in pain,
trying to swallow everything in vain.
I searched my lonely soul in the dark,
but all I can find is just an emptiness.

All this time my soul lives in despairs,
too many tears of miseries has fallen.
The fire in my eyes get weaker in time,
brightness seems so far away to reach.
I don't know for how long I shall suffer,
my broken heart refused to surrender.

Time is so cruel without you by my side,
I would give everything to make it done.
Even my heart bleeds on this thorny path,
alone I try to make some changes inside.
To put away sadness, anger and hatreds
so one day happiness shall come to me.

Written by: Reny Kanon

Moon Flower

You're blooming like the moonlight flower
so white and pale under the moonlight sky.
Each night the wild wind makes you sway
but never could take your strength away.

You're beautiful like the moonlight flower
always lives gracefully under the night sky.
Your petals reflecting the falling moonlight
makes the night lives like a bright daylight.

You're shining like the moonlight flower
no one knows how much you have strive.
makes me want to love and protect you,
always there for you every day and night.

The flower knew that it will wilt and die,
but still it struggles to live with vitality.
I rain my tears to keep it blossoming,
forever searching for the love I once lost.

Written by: Reny Kanon